Finally putting words to my anxiety and pain!

[Dharma22]

Hi there,

I’m a newbie here! Well I’ve been on the site but I haven’t posted anything real personal. I have some medical issues that I’ve touched on but I haven’t written anything too personal!

I suffer from depression and anxiety most of my life. And I know I have a panic attack coming on! My husband is ill, I’ve shared about him here! He is now in the hospital! He went in about 3 hours ago! Its his heart again. Severe breathing problems! I don’t know how much longer his poor body can endure this! We talked in depth last night about where we go from here. He isn’t young. He’s my 74 year old baby!

I never allow myself to really touch this pain! I’m so afraid I won’t be able to handle it!

Whew….thanks for letting me share!

[Agora1]

Hi Dharma22, I'm sorry to hear that your husband's in the hospital but know thathe is in the best of hands with his heart issue.

I'm glad you shared your worries. It isn't good to bottle up your feelings.

It's interesting how we all worry how we will handle hard times but usually

are very successful in dealing with what we are handed.

I think it's about an inner strength deep within all of us that helps us cope.

I wish your husband well during his hospital stay.

As for you Dharma, know that we are here to help you cope and give you

strength in not feeling so all alone. We care about you.. xx

[my4sons]

It's so easy for us to worry about the future and how we will handle difficulties. I do the same thing. What I am trying to get better at is focusing on the here and now. It's hard, very hard, but when I'm successful at doing that, I'm better prepared for the difficulties that come later, and here is why :

1. Worrying saps our bodies of energy, our bodies physically suffer due to us worrying, and when we don't put our bodies through that, we have more energy to help us cope

2. When we focus on the here and now, we are "with" our loved ones and nothing can replace that. We are there for them and we create beautiful memories to cherish forever.

Take it one day at a time. Some days will be better than others. Enjoy those better days and allow yourself the grace to feel as you do on the other days.

good luck,

Marion

[Dharma22 in reply to my4sons]

How much easier it is to give our precious energy over to worrying. Worrying about the future, worrying about the present, allowing that worry and fear to deplete our energy from that which we desire the most.

Simple happiness and love.

To be present and filled with awareness and blessed life.

As you stated so eloquently, nothing can replace beautiful memories that we can create with loved ones to cherish forever!

A minute at a time. A day at a time. With the Grace of the Divine!

Thank you Marion,

Cynthia

[Dharma22]

Agora1,

Thank you so very much for your gentle words and comfort behind your thoughts! In my heart of hearts I know that David is where he needs to be.

Of course they can care for him where I can not.

It’s all about fear. He’s there where I can’t touch him or let him hear my voice.

Letting go is so difficult. Letting someone else take care of him when I should be there!

He’s been my partner, my friend, my husband, my love for so many years!

Oh wow….I didn’t expect to share like that!

I thank you for helping me feel free and safe enough to share!! I felt as if I was going to be ill before I began writing!

Thank you for being there!

🌹

[Jane_5060]

Special prayers sent your way this evening!!🙏🙏🙏. Prayers for healing, Prayers to ease stress and worry and prayers that you will receive all the comfort and help that you need. Prayers for your husband to be made well again!🙏❤️🙏❤️

[Dharma22 in reply to Jane_5060]

God Bless you Jane❤🙏! You have no idea how much I thank you and appreciate you for your prayers!!!

It has been such a long night and I'm not allowed to see my husband yet. He's still in the emergency room!

I appreciate you once again! I don't feel quite so alone.

🙏❤🙏❤

[Jane_5060 in reply to Dharma22]

Dharma, I hope things are going okay! Keep sending out prayers🙏🙏🙏. You are not alone❤️❤️. Any time you need support, comforting words, time to vent, we are here for you! I’ll try checking in on you later friend! Hugs!!

[Dharma22 in reply to Jane_5060]

Jane! God Bless you for your continued thoughts and prayers of comfort! Knowing that I'm not alone means more than you can imagine!I was so overwhelmed and on the verge of a severe anxiety attack!.With prayer and knowing that I wasn't alone I was able to relax and redt!

Thank you again for your thoughtfulness 🙏🙏❤❤!

Bless you l

[Jane_5060 in reply to Dharma22]

Bless you!! You are not alone! God’s with you and we’re with you❤️❤️❤️and I’ll chat with you anytime you want! I’m glad you were able to relax a bit. You need some relief🙏. Praying and wishing the very best for you love!❤️💕 You are a rock! So much strength and courage!

[Dharma22 in reply to Jane_5060]

Hi there Jane! Bless your heart! There you are. My husband was supposed to come home today but he took a turn for you worse. I appreciate you being here Jane! I know that your prayers are with us!Thank you Jane ❤❤🙏!

I Do appreciate your thoughts! 🙏

[Jane_5060 in reply to Dharma22]

❤️❤️❤️

[Dharma22 in reply to Jane_5060]

Thank you Jane for your thoughtfulness 💓💓💓

[Midori]

Supporting energies coming for you and for your husband!

[Dharma22 in reply to Midori]

Midori,I believe in positive energy and the power of prayer and healing comfort!

Thank you for your thoughts ! 💞💞

[Atthepark]

I'm so sorry your husband is having heart problems one day you will face in your time sweet just let the tears roll. I was in a drs office in the room with the Dr and just started the ugly cry you know and the Dr kept talking to me and I couldn't respond and I just kept crying later they asked if I was on pain pills I was like no how rude ! Don't worry what anyone else thinks

[Butterflyfish-2021]

Praying for both you and your husband 🙏🏾🙏🏾