Sleep deprivation plays havoc with ones mind.

[secrets22]

The past two months have been horrendous with barely sleeping much at all,due mainly because i am in constant pain.

However ,yesterday i walked to a local shop,I say local but it is more than a mile each way.As i was walking i had a tap on my shoulder,and it was my neighbour Dave,but my goodness i was talking such a load of rubbish with no sense to it at all,i had no coordination whatsoever,everything i said had no bearing on what Dave was saying to me,and even i just could'nt make rhyme or reason to what i was babbling on about,and when i finally got home i felt so embarrassed knowing i had just been talking gobbledegook....so much so i have put a letter together for Dave stating the why and wherefores .

i have since looked up the side effects of morphine patches and Zapain,and sure enough one can suffer all the things i mentioned,no coordination,losing a train of thought,giddiness,(i often feel i am going to topple over) anxiety,blurred vision,and the list goes on.

In many ways i did feel relieved because i really began to think i was losing it,and an even worse scenario.

[Daveacr1959]

Good job walking 2 miles! That will help tire you out to sleep. And yes a letter is good to explain yourself to dave. Sleep deprivation is rough! Can you sleep in shifts? A few hours here a there ? Maybe ice the pain? Or heat ? I know you know all this stuff.

[Imaaan]

Sorry to hear about your struggles. Its really rough dealing with pain and sleep deprivation. I have sleep apnea so I can relate on the latter. May a time come where you sleep like a baby. Kudos to you for pushing yourself and getting some outdoor exercise. Hopefully it was beneficial.

Even though your encounter left you embarrassed at least you have the knowledge that other things were causing your behavior. I like that you're being proactive and nipping any conclusions he may have formed through an explanatory letter.

[secrets22 in reply to Imaaan]

hello friend,i also suffered sleep apnea for several years and still have a cpap machine...not sure if thats correct spelling,but not used it for a long time,i used to wake up gasping for breath but that has now subsided.

[Imaaan in reply to secrets22]

Spot on spelling. I'm glad that you're in the category of those that CPAP has worked for. Its definitely helping the heart to keep off the stress that low/ no oxygen creates.

It hasn't worked for me and I'm still struggling with it like so many others.