Sooo I had a panic attack today. Im not sure why, I think i was just carrying alot for stress. Anyway it was scary like they always are BUT this one was soooo much different from the others. I wasn't scared that I was dying, I wasn't terrifying of becoming crippled by the symptoms, mental I was fine. I cried and i was experiencing all the big panic attacks symptoms to the point of my body actually going into shock but I need, it be over soon and that it's just panic. I'm not going to die. And in 10 mins it was over. I was able with the help of my sisters to calm down enough to go to my room and breath and regular my body . It was amazing. That has never happen. I observed my body while in panic and noticed what it felt like and ( even while crying and not being to see or move my hands from my face) I calmed down alone and was back to being myself in a matter of minutes. I was still feel all tingly for abit BUT I WAS NOT ANXIOUS! LIKE WHAT!! It was awesome, I felt like wow, I can do this,I can do this! It was bad but it wasn't that bad!! I can have another one and still get thru it! It was scary as fuck but I'm not going to freak out. I CAN live my life like this... if I have to. I CAN DO IT!!
though I'd share this mile stone.