Back again

[AlexisKY]

Hi everyone. It’s been almost 2 years since I’ve been on/written here, but unfortunately I’m finding myself back to this app (which isn’t a bad thing, since all of you are so supportive) a couple years ago, I was going through very heavy, and hard OCD/anxiety episodes. With intrusive thoughts, and my anxiety was just terrible to manage. I’ve done pretty well the last couple of years, and I wasn’t even taking anxiety meds. For whatever reason, about a week or 2 ago, my OCD/anxiety just came back, in full force, for no reason it seems. I’ve been dealing with ROCD mostly, (I’m with my current boyfriend, who I’ve been with about 2 years) and I’ve just been, beating myself up over past mistakes, such as flirting with other guys, etc - even when we weren’t necessarily dating, more so talking. I’ve had to basically sit and “confess” everything I’ve ever done in my life to him, which he’s been super supportive about. He realizes that it’s all in the past, I would NEVER cheat on him, but you guys know how anxiety is, it makes you believe that you’ve done something wrong to someone, so you have to sit and ponder over every little thing you’ve ever done to pretty much anyone. I’ve been having a really time coping with my anxiety and OCD these past 2 weeks. I started taking my anxiety medicine again (half dose) a few days ago, I’ve been taking it everyday. It’s escitalopram) it’s just been very hard to shake these uneasy anxiety feelings, and I’m trying my best to stop thinking of mistakes I’ve made, because I know in my heart i’d never make them again, nor would I purposely hurt him/anyone for that matter. I guess I could just use some encouragement, or reassurance, that this is just a relapse in my anxiety or something, because it’s killing me this time around. I just want to go back to being happy and fine again.. it really sucks. Will I ever truly get better?

[lisa40509]

Just a blip with your anxiety. I’m in my 50’s and have mostly had it under control since age 30. Occasionally it will rear its ugly head at the most in opportune times without warning. I contribute this to my body going into alert mode because I’ve been comfortable and happy for a while. I honestly think of it as my hidden little demon that I need to beat down and take back control over. You’ve got this girl!! Beat him back down and show anxiety who’s the boss. Sounds like you have an amazing man on your side.

[AlexisKY in reply to lisa40509]

Thank you! I definitely do. He’s been so supportive about everything, even mistakes that I’ve made. I typically have it under control as well, but I guess it’s a flare up coming on, definitely sucks. It definitely is my demon as well! Thanks for the reply and encouragement! ♡

[Daveacr1959]

Get 45 minutes of daily cardio exercise to produce endorphins that battle your anxiety. And 6-8 hours of sleep. And be a positive thinker vs negative.

[AlexisKY in reply to Daveacr1959]

Thank you!!!!