Therapy is kinda helping

So hello 👋🏽 Hi there

I’ve been going to therapy for 6 months now witch is interesting I’m relearning things about myself and new things to help me continue this journey for a little longer I’ve done deep research into depression and suicidal thoughts to help me identify what sets me off witch is nothing my brain is just “different” for instance things that would normally bother other people I don’t see a problem with it it’s like my brain normalizes things that should not be normal so that I feel comfortable i’m pretty sure I’ve talked about a little bit of my mental stuff in my last post where I struggle with suicidal thoughts which are constantly active

A lot of my mental glitches are from trauma in the past and genetics. it’s nice having a therapist that I can pretty much vent everything to him and receive positive feedback instead of just talking to my dog and myself

I will say that there is some slight growth from when I first started talking to him I was just getting out of a toxic relationship & then sick with Covid so that kind of played a part in the depression area witch I am at 17% out of 27% of that dark hole 🕳 of depression

As for the suicidal active thoughts that plan is still in play. see I decided to go back to therapy not only because everybody said that I should but also because I did see I was declining in my mental health for a year and needed a boost witch I am getting I am an extremely active person and rarely sad unless a loved one dies 🤷🏾‍♀️ anyways just a little update for my selection.

🍾to 20 more years ☺️

[ziggypiggy]

It is nice to have a therapist that lets you vent and not just focus on progress. I don't know about my you but I like talking to my therapist about suicide. They want to be supportive and understanding but at the same time be monitoring how suicidal I am and if action needs to be taken. And of course they can never say that suicide is an option. Even though there are litterly millions of people everyday thinking about it. They try and downplay it and change the subject. But I'm like, hey it's the 4th leading cause if death, it can't be that uncommon.

Today at therapy we actually spent about 30 minutes talking about suicide, how it's stigmatized and considered taboo. Anyways, I've had therapists before who wouldn't really tolerate discussion of the suicide option. They immediately went into assessment mode. Don't even think about it or I'm taking you in.

[BrainIsFull]

Yay for progress! 🙂🙂🙂

[lovemydoggy]

Very glad you've chosen therapy.Stick with it. You'll be glad you did!