Terrified of living

[Dorsey]

Does anyone feel like they just can't keep going anymore. Everyday for 4 and a half years i feel like crap. Not a day goes by that i feel good. Sensations through body stomache that gurgle all day weak legs now and then Evertyday is a struggle and never any answers from doctors. I just want to have a good day. Going out is a battle i panic when waking up. Had so many tests all normal.

[Dorsey]

Thank you. I was on meds but never ever felt any better i feel shakey through body sometimes I can have a couple of good hours then it all comes back so much I want to do but just can't be bothered sad isn't it.

[Shnookie]

Hi Dorsey. This is Shnookie I’m sorry 😐 that U R suffering so much. I’m here 4 U and giving U a big hug 🤗. Do U see a therapist ? R U taking meds ?

Remember that we R a supportive group

Who don’t want U to suffer. Life is precious.

Please contact the Suicide Prention Hotline

Hugs 🤗 S

[Dorsey in reply to Shnookie]

Not suicidal will go and see doc again this week. Last doctor told me basically to suck it up and started me on a med i told her i couldn't take she said just take it but that gave me suicidal thoughts .The only thing it did was make me sleep and gave me restless legs so I weaned myself off it as I was only taking a little bit of the tablet tried more but just felt horrible. Thank you.

[Shnookie in reply to Dorsey]

So happy 😀 to hear that U don’t have suicidal thoughts. Read about your son. So sorry 😐 4 your loss. Yes COVID has been hellacious. Hopefully U will be vaccinated soon and able to visit your children. I’m here 4 U. Hugs 🤗S

[Dorsey]

Yes that time I retired felt lost. Lost my eldest son to cancer a year ago so all been overwellming. Plus with covid havent seen my other three kids for a year as we live 4 hours away from them and everytime we plan a visit they put us into lockdown.

[Funkyfaerie]

Hi Dorsey,I too feel dreadful everyday, can't remember a day that I haven't felt ill for 5 years, and that also was when I left work. But I was on burn out from traveling for work before that that brought it all on.

I am just so tense 24/7, my muscles hurt, it makes me shaky, dizzy, disoriented, sick, cold sweats, palpitations. I wake up in fear of the day, I clench my jaw and have headaches. Some days I feel bad, other days I feel really bad. But what can I do? I just live with it now. Had tests and scans and tried drugs all to no avail.

I think, I think about it too much and am expecting to feel crap, nothing makes me feel better, I just live with it now, but most days I feel crap all day and it's hard, it's not normal. I did go out when we could, but I never really enjoyed myself like the old days, it was all to forced...

I'm still hoping it will go one day, the summer makes me slightly better.

So I do feel for you, I think it helps to talk if you feel the same feelings to someone, it comforts and calms you a little. I'm here you want to swap symptoms (not literally!) 😊 and just chat. It's good to be about to say I feel like s**t today, smile about it and get on with your day as you know you are not alone. Its hard and I struggle every day. Apologies if I've rambled on!

So, so sorry to hear about your son..... ❤️

[Funkyfaerie]

I forgot to say, I also get the bad stomach symptoms, gurgling, bloated, indigestion, either works too much or not enough. All part and parcel of my not being relaxed and being anxious all day!

[TriToKnuTaSnoDeBe]

Hi Dorsey. I don't know much about your situation, but I was wondering if you've just seen medical doctors or if you've seen a psychiatrist? I know that there are lots of different mental health issues that can cause very real and very troubling physical symptoms. If the medical doctors haven't been able to figure it out, a psychiatrist might be another way to go.

I know that with my ADHD I have certain sensory issues that cause me pain. And there's also links between ADHD and nerve pain or ADHD and fibromyalgia (sorry, ADHD is what I know the most about, because that's what I tend to research for myself). I really hope that you're able to find out what's going on.

[Dorsey in reply to TriToKnuTaSnoDeBe]

Thank you seen lots of doctors but i will go and try again this week.

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[secrets22]

i can relate to everything you say,and its tough going,I to am terrified of living,and afraid/nervous of everything.But you have been through so much.x