Hello, Im just new here. Question. After long periods of stress, feeling very worried and some bad events happening everyday for over a month..., Anyone experienced waking up in the morning with Anxiety? Heart racing and like shaking inside and some energy type like I feel I can run a marathon but when that passes I feel drained.
I had anxiety when I was a teenager, I was worried mostly about death and getting ill, It always freaked me out. Plus I was bullied at school so I was always a loner yet I was a rebel so that was my only happiness. But all that anxiety I had dissipated over the years as I grew up. Yet I still have every now and then these scared to death thoughts...
Recently, around 3 years ago, I had a few things happening in my life that awoke all these old ghosts back. Sometimes I felt good to non existent anxiety then I felt it back, then good again then bad... and more and more often these switches but last month was very tough for many personal reasons. Many huge events happened I felt scared, sad, worried, angry, frustrated, upset, heartbroken, used and mentally manipulated etc...and even now that these things are done and I blocked that people off my life, I still think that something bad will happen again, that they will come back with something or that something will happen. I feel or they made me feel it was my fault and I even wondered it it was...so yes it was terrible christmas and terrible end of 2020.
I am trying not to think about it, Im trying to focus on good things and learn from that experience and if I did something wrong I am learning from it but I cant stop thinking about what happened...and the more I think the more I feel under that grey cloud over my head. Its like living somewhere and the reality its lost. I dont know how to explain it. I guess because my thoughts are thinking about their words and what happened over and over.
So I go to bed with these thoughts, Im trying not to but maybe my sub conscious its still under that shock, stressed, worried, sad when I fall asleep.... And as soon as I open my eyes in the morning, I feel so anxious. Heart racing and like shaking inside and some energy type like I feel I can run a marathon but when that passes I feel drained.
Do I have only Anxiety? Maybe Post traumatic disorder? bipolar? Panic disorder? depression?...sometimes I feel I have all of these...
Thank you for reading...