Don’t care

[Holdingmyselfback]

I can’t even seem to find the energy to explain how I feel. Falling asleep with my own constant sadness.

[Notknitting]

I'm sorry that you're feeling sad. Perhaps sleeping will give you some restored mental energy or give you an escape to not think about sad things. I hope that makes sense but you're not alone in this.

[Hidden]

My heart hurts for you. Feeling like that is horrible and then the guilt kicks in. It is like your mind says get up, but your body just doesn’t want too. Hang in there!

[b_asketbal123]

I can somewhat understand how u feel, my anxiety also makes me depressed. I can't sleep, eat, my mood is always low, and always feel lonely. Try to talk to someone that you can trust or seek some type of therapy. Don't run away and trap yourself in your house. You are not alone! I find it helpful to talk to someone you can relate to. Wish you the best of luck!!!😁😁

[13ga]

Hi Holding, and welcome - i see you just joined... i'm a newbie too. today's my 2nd day here.

i SOOOO get you.... (read your profile). i've been in a dark place many times; and most recently been there for the last few years. this last year was by far the darkest for me. but i'm starting to come out...

you can too!

it won't be fast, and it won't be easy; but here's the good news - you absolutely CAN get out! and while i've only been in this group 2 days - it looks like a great place for you to get support.

i'm still having problem motivating myself - but i've motivated myself enough to participate in this group. and clearly - so have you...

So - #1 - pat yourself on the back for taking that step! gratz!

may i ask what are you doing for YOU?

what are you doing to try to make your way out of the dark?

[Holdingmyselfback in reply to 13ga]

Thank you for taking the time to read it. I know that I can. The ketamine treatments I get actually are helping. So that’s for me I suppose. I ran a half mile this week. I don’t always feel quite so drained. It’s like my mind really really wants to be ok, but I mostly just think about doing things and before I know it the day has ended and I’m trying to remember if I even brushed my teeth today.

I’m not giving up. I can’t. I’ve been down that road and it makes things feel even worse and just leaves another awful memory. Plus, I don’t want to pass that pain onto my daughter.

[13ga in reply to Holdingmyselfback]

good for you!

exercise is the best drug - for almost everything.

i know what you mean; don't even know where my morning's gone!!

i think i brushed my teeth last month sometime.... ;o)

i know i showered as recently as last week... ;o)))

give yourself an even bigger pat on the back, for recognizing you don't want to hand down your baggage to your daughter!

let her pickup her own baggage!

[FearIsALiar]

Welcome to the group!

I understand. It’s sometimes super hard to explain the way we are feeling especially when we are tired of being sad

[Holdingmyselfback]

Thank you all so very much. It’s really nice to be able to speak dark thoughts and not be treated like an alien. Your support is helping me feel like a normal person, and that is a rare feeling.

[Hatelife34]

I can’t even sleep I have insiomnia sleeping is very hard for me I cry myself sleep most nights😔