When will I start feeling better?

[Joycelk]

I have been doing everything I know of to make myself feel better. Im on two antidepressents. Im in therapy. Everyday just gets harder and harder. I daydream about ending my life. I have no hope for the future. I lost everything my job, my home. And i moved back home with my 80yr old mother. I hate having her watch me fall apart. I have no motivation to do anything. I dont keep up with my personal hygiene. I eat enough food just to keep myself alive. If this what my life is what is the point of staying alive. I want to be free of all the pain. I have been feeling like this for over a year. And it dosent seem like is going to get better

[Hidden]

Hi. I'm so sorry that you're in a bad place. I don't have an advice at the moment except to say that I'm glad you're going to therapy. Take it one moment at a time. If all you do one day is take a shower, then be proud of yourself. My therapist says to give myself a pat on the back for all the things I accomplish.

[Joycelk in reply to Hidden]

Thank you.

[Believeinyourself123]

I'm sorry you are going through this much. I have so many similar issues that I struggle with. I'm here to support you yet I dont do it for myself. Just know you are not alone.

[Joycelk in reply to Believeinyourself123]

Thank you!

[FearIsALiar]

I know it hurts...I’m hurting so much too. Please try and find the good in everyday and write 3 things you are thankful for each day! Could be a sunny day or good food! It’s the little things ❤️ you’re gonna feel better. You must help yourself too. You will find light at the end of the tunnel. There is light! I have found it before and I’m trying to find it again !

You’re not alone. IT GETS BETTER AND IF I CAN GET THROUGH WHAT I DID IN THE PAST SO CAN YOU! I felt incredibly hopeless and I didn’t want to be here anymore. It gets better ❤️❤️❤️❤️

[Joycelk]

Thank you!

[AnxM]

You’re doing everything you can. So please just hang in there. If you’re at the very bottom, things can only get better!

[Joycelk]

Thank you!