I can’t believe this is real

[BetterMeToday]

I had to leave work early yesterday and I called out today. I can’t take this anymore I need some peace. I feel like I’m going crazy with rumination and fear. I don’t know that there is anything that can help. I’m just so tired and frustrated. I’m just venting but any support is helpful. I’m sinking

[Cycleknit]

Hi, you are not alone. So many feel the way you do and I was where you are now about 6 weeks ago. Everything going round and round in my head, not sleeping... constantly looking at my phone... to stop me thinking/worrying... I decided that if I could just get one nights good sleep... then I would find the energy... emotional turmoil takes all my energy. I am not on any other medication... so I bought ‘nytol’ ... where you take one a night... WHEN I need to. So a combination of quiet reading, bath before bed.... and taking the sleeping tablet.... which, to look to out makes you feel tired... but does NOT put you to sleep. The key is to give in to the sleep. not fight it. I’m sorry if this feels like ‘do this, do that... and what I am suggesting is not a permanent fix... for me... week 1... took it every 3rd day.... into week 2... I made the gap bigger.... so it was every 4th day... and so on... I am now in week 6... it is Friday... and I have not had any this week. I have worked to tell myself that how I am feeling is okay and natural. You taking time away from work ... is good. Be assured that what you have done is the right thing. Looking after yourself, as I am looking after myself, is so important to you being able to function in a good and happy way.

Don’t give up, don’t give in and certainly... do give way to being kind to yourself.... a long time ago I spent £180 for a 1 hr psychiatric session! I then decided... I could better use that money for a monthly spa...... seriously. It did me the world of good. Good luck BMT.💖 on your journey to bettermetomorrow💖

[BetterMeToday in reply to Cycleknit]

Thank you Cycleknit I appreciate any suggestions. I sleep pretty easily but wake up before my alarm and get full body sweats and panic. I can’t sit still and focus. Even as I am texting now. I’m really glad you were able to better manage your anxiety, it gives me hope that one day I’ll feel better. Thank you

[blackcat64013]

Hi👋, Its okay to say I am taking a mental health day for yourself. This is learning about coping. Often we soldier on for too long and stress forces us to take a bigger break. This is from personal experience.

The trick now is to address the issues causing you to feel this way, perhaps with the help of a psychologist.

If your employer provides an EAP (employee assistance program), you are entitled to free confidential counselling about any topic from home or work.

If you haven't seen your doctor for a physical and mental check up recently, this would be advisable.

Click on the 9 dots on the bar above to check out tips and resources.

All the best

[BetterMeToday in reply to blackcat64013]

Thank you I have a psychologist appointment coming up on Tuesday to start EMDR therapy and my therapist on Monday. I just wish there was a clear path to recovery because I’m lost and nothing seems to be working. I’m really struggling and I was already out of work for 8 months because of depression and anxiety. I just don’t know anymore.

[TheloniousMonkey]

The Anxiety & Phobia Workbook by Edmund Bourne really helps me when my anxiety comes up, especially the chapter "Coping with Panic Attacks." It helps me to know that, while anxiety attacks SUCK, they are never dangerous, and, like everything in life, they are never permanent. Just remember, "this too shall pass!"

I hope you find some solace here, and in your support network. You are never alone.

J

[BetterMeToday in reply to TheloniousMonkey]

Thank you I appreciate it. I’ll definitely check that out. It’s super hard while you’re suffering but it’s true that it will pass. Hopefully sooner than later lol

[SquirrelsHolt]

Hi there 🙋‍♀️ BetterMeToday and nice to meet you.

I'm just reading your post and a couple of previous ones to get where you're coming from. Firstly, in my humble opinion I think you are still punishing yourself for years gone by when you had little control over your drinking? Please correct me if I'm totally off track.

You to some extent, have let your thoughts over ride your today , here and now thoughts. You've managed to work (ok you had a bad day and left early) and you were down in the dumps. Do you attend AA or any other groups? Talking or typing on here or similar sites is a safe place for you. Counselling is excellent and I've heard good reports about it. You've got this. You need to have structured help , like AA etc so you attend each day or 2 x a week , whatever suits you. You will have very difficult days but folk who are on the straight and narrow, they ALL HAVE BAD DAYS ...THAT'S LIFE.

Please find out what's in your area that will help you and will you come back and tell us how things are for you? Best wishes and try and enjoy the weekend. 🐿🌈

[BetterMeToday in reply to SquirrelsHolt]

I think your absolutely correct. That is a huge part of it. I used to go to AA in the past and it helped a lot. I need to get back to some structure and community. Now it’s gotten to the point where all I feel is panic. The thoughts race and I’m trapped in a loop. Thanks for your support I will look into some meetings. I appreciate the feedback have a great weekend