Losing myself

[steveneedhelp]

Everyday I feel like I’m losing a piece of myself. Being in a relationship that I know isn’t good for me. She doesn’t treat me bad it’s the things she does behind my back. I’ve said it before I’m losing hope in living. Today I was with my kids we played we laughed I felt alive but when it was done and my kids were tired the feeling came back. I’m so close to losing my mind I can feel it. Everyday it gets worse it’s hard for to not to show it. I’m a coward for not looking for help. But it’s not like I haven’t tried I just don’t have the money to talk to a professional and my family doesn’t want to hear me cry anymore. I can’t remember the last time I was genuinely happy with my life.

[Jello2000]

First, you’re not a coward for not looking for help.

Joining this page in itself proves that. Talking with the people in this app has helped me tremendously, and I hope you will find that as well.

This is going to sound weird, but, what are your hobbies?

I have found that putting myself in a position to learn new things has been able to make myself feel whole.

[blackcat64013]

We are here for you.

Please take advantage of the phone help lines set up by governments to help with mental health issues during Covid-19. If you can be brave and make that first call, you will be better able to cope and receive the support you need.

[CCPM]

I am sorry that you are going through such a challenging time. We understand. We really do. And I can't imagine anyone thinking that you are a coward. Depression lies to us and tells us terrible things about ourselves.

In fact, it's great that you reached out to people here. In case you'd like to consider some other free options, here are some links. Wishing you the best.

Greatist--80 Awesome Mental Health Resources When You Can't Afford a Therapist: greatist.com/grow/resources...

Free Depressed Anonymous Online Support Groups: depressedanon.com/internati...

Free DBSA Online Support Groups: dbsalliance.org/support/cha...

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Sorry you’re feeling this way but have you talked to your significant other about the way you’re feeling? I tried therapy but it didn’t work out for me because I couldn’t find the right one for me but I have been reading self help books and they have helped me quite a bit. I’ve been going through a super tough time these past few months. You’re not a coward! Don’t give up ❤️