i still love you dad

[froggie_boi]

my father is a narc. he is a hypocritical,racist,lying,cheating,person who judges and gossips about everyone. he makes every thing about himself and he tells me that every thing that goes wrong is my fault. even with all the mental abuse that i have received i still love him a lot and i have a hard time coping with the fact that i will never have the father figure in my life that i want and need

[Tikirob]

Hey Hi, it’s so hard to love our parents when they are not someone we would normally keep company with had we not been related to them. I’m not sure if this is how you feel too but your post made me feel that you were doing your best to love a person who is hard to get along with.

I experience a similar feeling toward my dad. I stopped talking to him at one point but we reconvened eventually. I always think when something tragic happens it will bring us closer together but it doesn’t. Not even my mothers passing made our relationship deeper. Yet I still engage with him as if that moment of parental love I wish I had is right around the corner.