End it all

[Mia_love]

I think i am getting better but maybe a part of just doesnt want to get out of it . This uneasy and uncomfortable feeling that makes you restless ... and then i just suddenly think of killing myself to end it all because no matter what i dont want to stay here i want go away from here from these people cause they make my shiulder feel heavy with responsibilty and expectations . And i have this awkward feeling in tge pit of my stomach about what is going to happen in the future to the result what i am doing everysingle day .... i dont feel like doing nothing .. all day i am lying in my bed in darkness all day ... and i show ad if i am getting better ... smile in front of my parents because i dont want to hurt em

Could somebody please talk to ..

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Hi Mia,

Your comments are all to familiar to those of us with heavy depression. I can talk in private chat or here is you like. Let me know which is best. I have been and am where you are now. Feelings can often be hard to manage with mental health issues. Feel free to talk me up as often as you'd like.

[Mrspjsmom]

I have good days and horrible ones. My battle with depression and anxiety has been going on for decades. Even attempted suicide once but changed my mind at what was probably one of my last minutes and called for help. While I was in the hospital I saw the pain and fear in my loved ones eyes. In a strange way even though I was at my lowest the attempt changed my life for the better. I got a new therapist and psychiatrist, had ECT treatments and for the first time was surrounded by people who understood. Please try to hang in there. Post and ask for help from the community here. And feel free to message me if you want. Living with mental illness doesn't make you weak. Just the opposite you are strong and you are a survivor. HUGS and BLESSINGS!