So, 3 months ago my husband and I had some trouble, he is working abroad, felt overwhelmed and surpassed by the circumstances, he never talked to me about that and just blocked himself, 2 months later, while I was getting ready to go and be with him, he was moved to another city and my plans fell through, he had no idea I was going and when he knew, he reached out after 2 months of 0 communication, we talked, cleared the air and let each other know what had happened, I told him I was going to move there but taking care of my paperwork took more time than expected.
I know that he felt sad and overwhelmed cause his roommate had to move out and some of his co-workers were relocated, he is in a different country, with no emotional support and instead of letting me know, he just blocked himself.
After we talked about everything we started to have some communication, he called me on my bday and we exchanged a few texts for a couple weeks, then, one of our dogs got sick, we talked about it but when she became too I'll and had to be put to sleep I wasn't able to contact him, he called me a couple days later, I told him and I think that made him feel sad again, he has barely any contact with anyone.
Meanwhile I am here, waiting, cause he has to be back here this month, I don't know if he was able to appreciate our relationship and understand that we had no bigger issues than distance and his loneliness, I really hope so but the uncertainty is driving me crazy and my anxiety is here to stay, I can barely sleep, I'm smoking when I never did, I am way to sad and depressed to function, tears just collect in my eyes every single day, whenever and wherever I am, I just want him here so I can hug him and let him know that I love him and that we are worth it and that it was just the freaking distance.