I need something

[Itsgettingworse]

I need something. ANYTHING, something to give me a feeling other than anxiety about my day. If I have bad days at work, it always ends with me lying awake at night thinking of everything I feel like I did wrong and combing over every detail looking for something that would make "it"(the bad day) my fault. Replaying conversations, overanalyzing social interactions, all of it. I am not an addictive person. I don't use any kind of addictive substances nor have I had any desire too, yet I feel so desperate to FEEL something othe than what I feel right now. In the past this led to self harm, but I feel that I have worked through that well enough to stay out of old habits. I always make sure I end my days with positive things. I took a dance class that took things off my mind, I pick up an instrument to clear my mind, meditate, yoga, the whole shebang, but no matter what I do, no matter how I try, once my head hits that pillow it turns into a "here are all your flaws" show. Maybe venting on here will help. Getting it out while I lay here. Idk. Ugh 🙄

[gotmilk]

I totally get it,Im awake thinking about everything that happened at work a couple days ago thinking Im going to get fired for something I had no part of.I think all the time!I feel for you .try yoga,meditating,church,thats what I am going to start doing maybe that will help!

[Pamela2876]

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