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[Ceelos81]

So I went to the mall today to get my dad a Father’s Day gift and I was walking around like a zombie. I felt unbalanced and count not make a decision on a shirt for him. I just felt as is I was walking omg without a cause and felt lightheaded. I use to enjoy going out and now I just want to go back home.. witch I don’t get because even at home I feel bad. Before my home was my safe feel good place, now it seems that feel just as bad at home. Like I can’t get away from the anxiety/ depression... could it be ptsd because I had a bad episode at home and now my brain is tricked into feeling fear at home too??? I have a really bad health anxiety mostly heart disease since I suffer from pvcs

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What you've experienced sounds a lot like anxiety. Depersonalization, derealization, vertigo, dizziness, and even a smidgen of agoraphobia (fear of being out of your comfort/safe zones). I have felt like this in stores, places where I felt extreme anxiety, and so many places. It is uncomfortable and the unsteadiness can feel quite bothersome when you feel awkward walking. While I am not a doctor, I wouldn't say you have PTSD. It sounds like you have rewired or have been conditioned to associate negative experiences with the location. If we only have anxiety in grocery stores, the odds are entering one is going to be our trigger. CBT might help you a lot in terms of the agoraphobia and anxiety you have. It's very understandable you have health anxiety with what you were diagnosed with, but try to rationalize with yourself on that. Are you on top of this disorder? You can function, save for the anxiety, with it. Medications, tests, and so on ran and being used? Based on what I read, it sounds like you're having stressful and anxious times outside your comfort zones. Fight or flight kicks in and you get the symptoms you are feeling, plus the whole health anxiety part. What makes me doubt PTSD is whether you've had a truly intense memory or situation that triggers you into intense emotional and physical responses. Typically for some, this is gun shots or explosions...but I have also wondered if there is a "lite" version of it that anxiety sufferers go through because we do many things people with PTSD do: avoid situations based on prior experiences, our bodily reactions are absolutely heightened and much more. That all said, it does sound like an anxiety based reaction you had. If you aren't already, I would talk with a therapist about CBT and a doctor about medication if want to go that route. You definitely shouldn't have to live on "egg shells" stuck to only areas you feel safe in. The goal is to expand that safe zone and use logic. Just my own thoughts, but a doctor visit would probably help a lot to hear that many of your symptoms are common with moderate anxiety.

[Startagain191]

I feel like that even being at home it’s like I’m the walking dead I feel emotional and numb at the same time like I can’t think my head feels dazed my depression and anxiety have been apart of my life since I was 7yrs old and I’ve never been able to completely deal with it it takes over me and my life no matter how hard I fight it there’s just no getting away from it so I can relate to how you feel it’s sad that there are many people that don’t understand what we go though each day as they have never felt what it’s like to have anxiety depression or anything else along those lines but I hope you start to feel better and if you would ever like to talk to someone where all here for each other