Went to bed just fine and started dreaming about work. This dream turned into a nightmare! I kept hearing patient names, their voices and was giving everyone shots nonstop. My job is super fast paced and I don’t get to eat sometimes. We pretty much munch on snacks all day. So, in my dream, I would get so hungry that I’d start passing out after shots. Also, I looked like I was starving. I’m pretty skinny naturally and I was like literally dying. Point is, this dream was so awful that I woke up dizzy from it.
Just when I thought I’d woken up, I closed my eyes again and the voices got louder and louder. I felt like I had to cover my ears and got super nauseous. It is cold in my room so I grabbed my favorite jacket and ran to the restroom. My sister woke up and asked what was wrong. To my surprise, simply voicing “I’m having a panic attack” instantly shut out all the voices. From there, I focused on relaxing and now I’m here. Writing, and hoping that by the time I finish I’ll be able to fall asleep.
These are small anxieties that I get throughout the day. Also, my abdomen still hurts a bit. It’s honestly just in my head from the dream. I’m pretty upset about this. This was my first work-stress induced panic attack. And, it was one of the worst things on the planet.