Trauma and Confidence?

[samalamadingdong]

Recently I feel like Im noticing more and more of my lack of self confidence and worthiness. I can’t ignore it any longer, or it won’t let me.

Having experience poverty, emotional, physical and sexual abuse as a young child for many years Ive always felt like something has been missing inside me ever since. Something vital and important.

Like my ability to drop my guard and allow myself to just be happy. Never believing everything is “going to be okay” Because most of my life it just hasn’t.

I’m curious if anyone has a similar hollow feeling buried within that might stem from past trauma.

And if so how do you fill this empty pit?

Friends don’t seem to understand, I sound like a broken record cycling through the same pain, fears, worries again and again. Family is dysfunctional and is a large source of pain.

[Myspark]

You are not alone. Many of us feel something missing. Depending upon the philosophy, you either cannot completely fill that hole or your spiritual higher power can fill that void. I am learning to love myself. Even when I feel that old shame, remembering that I love myself can ease the pain and I usually smile through the rest.