Hi I am new

[Flashy]

Hi , I'm new. For quite awhile now I've been hiding from everyone that I am depressed. For quite some time now nobody has noticed which is good but I am feeling like it is starting to go out of control and I have been so close to doing something that I know I will regret and I feel like I don't have anyone who I can be honest with about this.

[David0987]

Welcome, Flashy. You don't have to hide anything on this group. I know how that can be exhausting... I don't tell anyone at work and it can take a lot of focus and effort when I'm at my worst.

[fauxartist]

first of all, many people who begin to feel the symptoms of anxiety or depression that start to get worse, they become more fearful it will be noticeable by others, often they feel somehow they are either not keeping the lid on this properly, are embarrassed, ashamed, a whole load of crap on top of the fact that you are just sick and it's not your fault. If you had the flu you certainly would have no problem telling your loved ones. But when it comes to mental illness...there is still such an antiquated stigma and associated shame that your just weak, that people hold these terrible feelings quietly in until something drastic happens that has a ripple effect on all their friends and family forever. We can get help professionally, and through various methods of coping with this disease. But it sounds like your in crisis or close too, and your family may not be able to understand it, but they certainly would hopefully love you enough to believe you when you tell them you need help. Your being here is good too because you can read others posts and comments who also suffer with these disease and how others cope and find ways.

[gerg]

When I started talking about my mental health issues I found out that a lot of people around me related well to what I was going through. They may not have understood the extent of my situation, but they tried to understand what they could. Some people even started to talk about their experiences. My openness was good for all involved.