Not any better

I thought I was getting better

I’ve been on my meds for awhile

I felt a little happier but I’m back to over thinking and feeling so sad and lonely

I look at myself in the mirror and I feel like I don’t know who I am anymore

I was once so happy and I don’t feel like I’ll ever get that back

Everyone says stuff takes time but I’m tired of my heart hurting and being alone

I want my life back

I want to be me!

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I understand Chris1976. I have been on meds since March and keep waiting for the miraculous transformation. I think that I will never return to the old me. This is hard to accept. I’m still struggling with this fact. I’ve decided to place it in the same box as aging. I will be 60 in August and will never be who I was at 30, 40, 50.... however, I have the opportunity to become the best person I can be right now, mental illness and all. I discovered that I have been taking my medication wrong. I misread the dosage and have been taking less than what was prescribed. I started taking correctly today! Now, I’m starting over..... geez! 🤷🏾‍♀️ I had to laugh at myself which helped immensely. Now back to you......

How long have you been on your medication? Do you see a Therapist? Do you think that you’re more lonely than depressed? My mind sometimes interchanges depression and loneliness. Do you have a diagnosis?

I want a better life and the ability to use the tools provided to help me live with this disease. This forum is one of those tools. Praying that your day gets better. 🙏🏾