Not again....

[Hageslah]

Today my anxiety kicked in so instead of getting A I got B but almost got C....every grade is important to me because there's to many people on the list and I have to get in to the school I always wanted..yesterday I also looked for Demi Lovato talking about suicide and depression.I felt like I'm with nothing that I'm some mistake that god made I don't enjoy my life anymore...the sport that I liked and play for over 8 years it feeling like everybody hates me,that I'm some idiot I'm bullied there so I don't want to play hockey again...I made up excuses I have to study or I'm felling sick or exhausted just to not go to practice.every one is saying I should tell my parents but they're big hockey fans they always think about hockey and I don't want my parents to be mad or dissapointed at me ....I feel like I don't have porpoise in live.

[mhunnell19]

I can relate to this. Recently I’ve been failing a lot of classes because of my anxiety. I can’t know exactly what it is you’re going through, but I promise it’ll be okay. If you don’t get into that dream school you’ll find one you love a lot more. I did. If you love that sport, then do it. They have coaches and such that are there to help you if you have issues with teammates.

If you take one thing away from this, just remember that you aren’t alone

[Hageslah in reply to mhunnell19]

Sadly they wont care they don't even notice me anymore so I won't enjoy hockey anymore but thanks