Can’t shake this feeling

[ckw1]

I just can’t seem to get rid of this feeling that something terrible is about to happen. I’m so scared of being alone and I don’t think I can do this on my own. If I am forced into that situation where I would have to start over I choose to not even bother going on. What’s the point.

[ResaLux]

You are not your feelings. You are not your thoughts. They are only visitors. When they come, let them. But dont hold on to them. Let them go. Close your eyes, take a deep breath and say to yourself "i am not my thoughts" you have the power buddie. It will get better

[ckw1 in reply to ResaLux]

I’m trying so hard to work through these feelings. I’m breathing, I’m journaling my thoughts and trying to reassure myself that this will pass but it is still holding on and it feels like its getting worse. I don’t know what to do anymore all I want is a sign that will tell me that everything is going to be okay.

[ResaLux in reply to ckw1]

Here is your sign. Its going to be ok. I promise. I am on your side and you are not alone. I have been where you are. I have good days and bad days. Its ok. Cut yourself a break, you are doing the best you can. You are strong and you will make it through this. I know you will

[ckw1 in reply to ResaLux]

That’s the problem, I’ve been here many times before also and I keep telling myself that if this is the best I can do what’s the point. I don’t want to do this anymore I’m tired of the constant battle, the bad days outnumber the good days and even on the good days it’s always looming in the background waiting to strike again. I’m so over it.

[ResaLux in reply to ckw1]

You can do this! I know its tough but so are you! I know you are exhausted from battling yourself all the time, i have been there. You know i have. You helped me feel better with your encouragement. What would you tell me right now if i was feeling like you are?

[ckw1 in reply to ResaLux]

I know I would probably tell you that this is not real. It’s not as bad as your mind makes it out to be and that everything is going to work out just fine. We’ve been here before and will probably be here again. Every time we battle this we learn something new and possibly learn a way to make it easier to get through it.

My rational brain knows all of this but as you know when you’re stuck in the middle of it, it becomes a very different place. It’s scary and feels like this time will be the one that pushes you off the cliff.

I’m trying to stay focused and positive and your words of encouragement help and make it seem less real. I feel like I just might have to strength to make it through this even though is seems so bleak right now.

[AllisonO]

Hey now, it's going to be okay. Take a step back, close your eyes, and think of your feelings/stressors as cars going by. Watch them pass and guide them on their way. Your life is in your control, all in your hands. Day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute, you will get through this. Keep your head up <3 xo

[ckw1 in reply to AllisonO]

I’m trying to stay in that frame of mind and I’m trying to stay relaxed but I feel so overwhelmed right now and I can’t seem to think straight for more than a few seconds. My mind feels like a jumbled mess of worry and negativity.

[AllisonO in reply to ckw1]

I know the feeling. Sometimes, nothing can make it better but time. This too shall pass, although I'm sure right now it feels like it will take a lifetime. However, it won't. The jumbled mess will sort itself out and life will go on, stay strong and wait it out my friend. It'll be ok! Deep down you know that, too

[ckw1 in reply to AllisonO]

Yes a part of me knows that it’ll be okay. Sometimes that gets buried in the background because the other noise gets so loud. I know I’m not making much sense but I feel that if I can get some of these thoughts out at least it won’t be clogging up my mind and making it harder than it already is

[AllisonO in reply to ckw1]

Actually, you make perfect sense. I hope your day got better and you feel a bit less jumbled up!

[ckw1 in reply to AllisonO]

Yes, thank you for asking. My day finally improved to a more manageable level. Thank you for your support today

[beachy7]

Get outside and get some fresh air if you can! Long walk with music on👍sometimes u have to change your scenery to quiet your mind

[ckw1 in reply to beachy7]

Thank you for the suggestion. I actually just came back in from a walk and I feel a little better. I’m still not 100 percent and I don’t know which way my thoughts are going to be running too for the rest of the day. I’m still worried that the little that I’ve gained is going to come crashing down within the next few hours. Trying not to think that way but sometimes your mind runs away from you.

[beachy7]

Take a longer walk😉lol if your not better yet another 15 might do the trick

[ckw1 in reply to beachy7]

Hahahaha. I like the way you think.

[pinkplasticball]

This sucks so bad. I went through this for probably... a year, year and a half? I thought everyone in my family (or I) was going to die from cancer or some other debilitating disease so I was overreacting to every mole or bump and was on Google nonstop. It’s miserable.

Somehow it just... went away. I don’t even remember when, I just remember realizing that I hadn’t had those terrible intrusive thoughts in awhile. Sometimes I’ll still have them, but I’m able to dismiss them if they aren’t realistic, whereas before I would dwell on them for months.

So there is hope that these thoughts will just resolve on their own. Of course you don’t want to deal with it for a year.

I wish I had more advice for you, but I’m sympathetic to you for sure 😢

[ckw1 in reply to pinkplasticball]

Thanks for your sympathy and words of encouragement. I have suffered from depression and anxiety for most of my adult life. This last year has been some of the worst I can ever remember having to deal with. I really hope that these terrible thoughts and feelings lift soon. I’m over it.