Mixed up

[Jade1992]

In 2012 I lost a granddaughter. She was 18 days old when she passed due to sids. Later that same year I lost my only son and one of my nephews in a horrific car accident. Then just a couple of months ago I lost a cousin due to hanging himself. Then yesterday I lost my only Aunt.

[Bird-67]

Oh bless you, how awful. Please keep in contact with others on this site as there is bound to be someone who can relate to what you are going through and you won't feel alone. Good luck xx

[Jade1992 in reply to Bird-67]

Thank you. I am trying to keep my head up, but I slowly feel like I am sinking further. Almost like I am in quick sand. The harder I try the worse things get.

[Budjen]

I can really relate to this (except losing a grown child) . Do you have any daughters or grandchildren? At 54 years old my eyes have really been opened to family, and especially the family you make and hopefully keep/preserve. I recently lost boat my parents. 16 years before that I lost my only sister. husband and brother in law. I lost an unborn child to tubular pregnancy and just a year ago my partner for 14 years moved out with out a word.

I can relate to your enormous, unbearable loss.

[Jade1992 in reply to Budjen]

Yes i have a daughter that just turned 26 she has 1 son gonna be 6 and my other daughter is 23, she had 3 girls. The first the system too, second one we lost at 18 days old to sids, and the third is gonna be turning 4. My son has a little girl that just turned 5, but have only seen pics of her. Her mother has it in her head that I plan to take her away. I watch my grandson while my daughter works. My mother and I just came back from Chicago where we spread my aunt's ashes on my grandparents Grace. Now all I have is my mom, my two girls, 4 nephews, 1 niece, 2 great nephews, and two great nieces. My oldest sister is in prison for life (which I am glad for) and my youngest sister is an alcoholic drama queen and will use anyone and everyone for what she can get. And my grands. It's just rather depressing.