Crossroads

[Sandrat73]

What do you do when your giving in. When things are just to much. I don't see the point in living this life.

[Lilac1234]

Please dont let those negative thoughts win! What current pressures are you facing if you dont mind me asking?

[Sandrat73 in reply to Lilac1234]

For the past five years I have been fighting through a lot. Father passed, going through theropy for C-PTSD, I have a teen Autistic daughter who sexualizes exerything so I am battling groan men trying to get with her on line or to meet up. My partner of 20 years was having several affairs, I didn't see that one coming, huge blow. And then my mother moved to my house and within 3 days we found out she had cancer. We fault so hard, I stayed with her through all her hospital stays and dr visits. It went so fast and I felt so out of control, I didn't know what we were heading Inot the last few weeks and then I lost her. It was the second time in my life I could actually feel my heart break. Since that day I feel no happiness, cant focus, cant be anyone's rock anymore. Relationships all end badly. I don't see the point in conceit g with anyone. And I'm so lonely. So what's the point in living?

[Loveydovey0519 Ambassador in reply to Sandrat73]

Everyone has different religious beliefs and some have none at all. However me myself, when I feel like this I turn to God and pray. You may not believe in God and that is your choice, but there has to be some higher being that you believe in I would think. I know God has worked wonders in my life and I turn it all over to him and just pray and talk about things with him.

[victoriaahne in reply to Sandrat73]

I'm sorry you can't grieve and let go. I just started and it took me 30 years. If it took that long to accumulate so much pain and loss in my life that I trust no one and I am numb inside; how long will it take for me to heal. Give yourself time for you. It's a job everyday to counter the negative in my life and move forward towards a better future. It won't be free of pain and doubt. From my personal experience I hit my rock bottom by isolating and dreaded waking up. But I found strength to keep going and get rid of the negative in my life. Even if that meant family. You are valuable and deserve a better happier life. Hang in there and find others who will support you. It's harder than law school but I did it. I'm still alive and starting over. Take care of yourself because no one else will.

[RENEENAY444]

I can SO relate! I do not have any advice, but I want you to know that I feel exactly the same now. We just have to keep on keeping on somehow. It takes every fiber of my being to get up and get through the day. This support forum REALLY helps me. Please keep posting. Others here are AWESOME!

[Hatelife17 in reply to RENEENAY444]

I am going thru the same thing. Yesterday I had to make myself get up and vacuum. I just sat for hours thinking about doing it but couldn't.

[RENEENAY444 in reply to Hatelife17]

It is so awful. I am so sorry we all have these issues