Good health to all of you. I came into this group just after I was diagnosed with a PSA of 49 and a Gleason Score of 9. I've been on the Lupron for 3 months and am seeking a second opinion on Surgery. If surgery is ruled out (There is some cancer on my seminal vesical) then I'll start radiation. I've already had the markers placed.
I'm very focused on getting better but I'm also very sad and full of grief. The Lupron is doing all of its things; I've gained 20 pounds, I'm completely impotent and I tripped when my back leg caught going over a log. My muscles are waisting. For the first time in my life, I've noticed what could be called "Good days and bad days" and even this is frightening.
When I was younger I ran a marathon, played rugby and ice hockey. I always considered myself a pretty rugged, testosterone-driven man. I'm grieving that loss. My wife insists she is actually quite fine giving up sex and this just makes things worse.
How do you cope with this sense of loss? How much is reversible?