Its crazy how fast life can change. I'm 46 years old and before February of this year always considered myself a normal healthy man. I have always been in good shape and was completely blind sided when I was presented with my diagnosis. I first noticed my symptoms when urinating and bladder not completely emptying. It wasn't that I couldn't hold it and wasn't even getting up at night to go. I just figured I'm not getting any younger. Then I noticed when ejaculating that not much would come out sometimes. I decided to talk to my primary care doctor and he ordered some tests and my life has been a whirl wind since.
After getting my test results of a PSA at 286 I was sent to a urologist and digital exam done and not actually telling much other than being somewhat firm. Biopsy showed 8 samples positive. One with Gleason score of 8 and the other seven Gleason 9. Urologist suggested Lupron shot immediately followed by a month of Casodex. Scans were ordered and lymph node involvement was present. Nothing was showing present in bones.
I was in utter disbelief at everything that was being thrown at me. I did my share of crying and finally one day a came to a realization that what I need to do to win this war isn't going to be found in emotions dwelling on why me and how unfair this is. I needed to take control and learn. When in battle the best leaders always know their enemy.
The biggest problem with prostate cancer at 46 is different in the fact that in younger men there is not as much data out there. After all the average age this disease is diagnosed is 66. It is an older mans disease with most facts based on the outcomes of older men. The adage of you will probably die of something else before the cancer gets doesn't apply here. Unfortunately it is becoming more common but fact based information is hard to find. The other problem is there are not enough of us to even preform clinical trials on to see what possible best outcomes are.
I have been stared on chemotherapy and have one treatment left to go. The side affects haven't been as bad as some of the horror stories I have read about but believe me, they don't get easier as they go on. I have one left to go. In the last few years chemo given early has shown to help outcome. The next step will come after scans are done when chemo treatment is over. At 2 months my PSA was again checked and is down to 3.2 after Lupron and half way through chemo. Its not zero yet but I will take that because its showing that cancer is not growing and PSA heading in right direction.
I have a new normal now and I'm feeling more confident now that I have somewhat of a handle on what is going on. We have to play the cards we are dealt, its up to us to play them or fold. With 3 daughters and a lifetime ahead of me I'm not ready to do that. I have found this to be a great site because its the real guys going through the trials of a very real disease. I have also learned to stay away from some of the forums out there and don't get hung up on figures. I have come to figure out we are individuals when it comes to outcome and treatment but we are together in this fight.