Doing my best...I think

[PlayingRoot]

Hi, I was diagnosed with ADD and Depression in high school, but didn't have anyone to guide me through trying medications, or anything else really. What I was taking took my emotions away, so I stopped taking anything for several years. In my thirties I was diagnosed with ADHD and Dysthymia, which made so many things in my life make sense, but even when I've found a good medication/med combo, they seem to stop working after a year and my life spirals. I've been doing EMDR and it's been great, but after a year I still feel like something isn't getting dealt with and I don't know what it is. Now that I'm 40 I'm trying to get healthy in every way, but am struggling with motivation and consistency. My kids, who both have Autism, among other things, need me to be strong and consistent and I'm tired and overwhelmed most of the time. I'm hoping to find a place where I know I'm not alone and people have the same struggles as me. I find it difficult to connect with people and after 2 failed marriages to narcissists, I don't trust many people. Sorry this is so negative!! I love laughing, my kids, nature and Jesus.

[STEM_Dad]

Welcome to the community PlayingRoot !

I've found this to be a supportive community. I hope that you will as well.

I can relate to what you said about "trying to get healthy in every way, but am struggling with motivation and consistency".

I'm a dad of 4 kids (2 adults and 2 preteens). I'm 3 years post-divorce, co-parenting my younger kids.

My mental health had degraded under a narcissistic boss several years ago, and when I was in therapy after getting out of that situation, that's when I got diagnosed with ADHD and Anxiety. - Just over a year after my diagnosis was when my wife filed for divorce. (Long story. I've previously shared a lot of it here.)

You didn't seem as negative as I think I just was. (I had to cut myself off there...it was starting to snowball.)

Like you, I love my kids and Jesus! I'm rebuilding my life around them.

[booksncoffee]

I relate to having my own stuff and my kids having their own and need to get stronger and my stuff under control so I can be there for them more completely. We are a neurospicy household but mostly undiagnosed. I too have been divorced from a narcissist and still dealing with that as he tries to influence the kids against me. It’s a lot and I want so much to live a healthy life that is better overall. I hope this community is a good start.

bc you love Jesus, we need to be friends!