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[DieForelle]

I'm not sure if this is related to my ADHD, or another disorder, or just bad impulse on my part. But I was having an argument with my mother over getting new flooring because it was an agreement that we had years ago that I would remove the carpeting, put kilz down, and then immediately go and get flooring so the problem wouldn't ever get worse. We live together due to my medical issues that I'd rather not discuss right now. I was trying to explain to her that I didn't exactly want to start working on something for months again in regards to the floor if the original promise wasn't kept. She started yelling, insulting me, and saying that if I was going to be like that we'd never get new floors, etc. When she started yelling it just felt like a constant buildup of pressure in me, I couldn't understand why she was yelling, I wanted to run outside, I couldn't breathe, and then she turned the tv up as loud as it could get, and out of nowhere I stand out of the folding chair I was sitting on and smash it against the floor a few times before going to the sunroom and crying. And every time I tried to stop, I'd just remember something else and start crying and hyperventilating. I also have tremors that are heavily exacerbated by emotional issues, and I'm currently having a hard time writing this. If anyone could give advice, I'd really appreciate it. For reference to my ADHD, I haven't been treated for it in years because my parents thought it wasn't a big deal since I dropped out to take care of my father when he was dying of cancer.

[IndyTravis]

I’m so very sorry to hear about your struggles. This type of reaction is something I can identify with, as these type of outbursts were very common for me before I finally got an ADHD diagnosis and began treatment. This sounds to me very much like what is referred to as “rejection sensitive dysphoria,” a common condition for people with ADHD. It also sounds like you may be struggling with untreated post traumatic stress, generalized anxiety, and likely depression. It’s hard to control reactions when underlying conditions aren’t treated. Ever since seeing a psychiatrist and a therapist, my outbursts have gone from more than once a month to one or two times a year. Please reach out if you’d like to talk.

[AuntieSquirrel23]

IndyTravis I couldn't agree more on the RSD; it is very real. The only thing that I'm unsure of is the anxiety and depression becuase ADHD and untreated ADHD mimics these same symptoms. I do think and agree that seeking professional help is a must and to peel the layers back to unearth and address what are the causes and comorbities, if any... and likely so. We have those almost 98% of the time. I also think what you experienced does sound like there may be some PTSD and as a former caregiver of an aging and ailing parent, there is highly likely undealth with trauma. With ADHD and RSD we often lack the regulators which control the outbursts and emotional stress. I'm also an HSP and have auditory sensitivities and I may have reacted similarly if I have not been pouring into years of research and self-help/self-regulation (I talk to myself....a LOT) Believe me, everyone also has a breaking point. You are going to be just fine and you are not broken!