Hi there, I'm a 24yo female with undiagnosed but suspected ADHD. Throughout my childhood I've had OCD, anxiety and in adult life live with PTSD and anxiety. I've always masked my symptoms to friends and family, even as a child. For example, having trouble regulating emotion but internalizing it or turning them to hidden OCD behaviours. I put quite a bit of pressure on myself to succeed and can be very task focused. However in the last 2 years, it's becoming harder for me to regulate and sometimes having the constant 10 thoughts in my head at once is exhausting. I find myself getting extremely happy and extremely sad very easily and float between intense task and reward focus, or unable to start one thing at all.
However, I do like/am very used to the fact I can function much of the time to a high level with my ability to multitask a lot of things at once. For example, good days at work I can do a lot more than some other people, who do one thing at once. I'm worried with medication that it will stop that completely and remove that handy part of my brain. I was wondering if anyone has experienced this, and is there a therapy or medication out there that can quiet thoughts or simplify processes for those unbearable overwhelming moments? I currently cope with physical stimulating movements to let off that brain energy but it's not super effective.
Thank you for reading and appreciate any advice or support!