Currently struggling and I'm all over the place..

[Wiiki420]

hey, i have autism and adhd and im currently struggling with managing my emotions, mood and life in general.. everyday i feel different my mood is up n down n round n round n then i burn out n feel exhausted.. then i cant sleep then my hyperactivity kicks in and i spend 3 to 5 hours of the early hours running round startin multiple things i never finish untill i crash n burnout again and get overwhelmed by the mess ive created..

I just dont know how people do "normal"...

I'm the biggest failure in my family n friends group n everyone just thinks im lazy..

This sh*ts hard!

[FindingTheAnswers]

Hi Wiiki. I have ADHD but not Autism. I still struggle with my emotions and mood-although they have been better since I started Adderall. But they’re still there. And they’re always. negative. Growing up in my family ‘Circus’ didn’t help. How much is/was from dysfunction vs ADHD? I don’t know. Like you, I’d be Mentally/ Emotionally exhausted, as if I did manual Labor all day. I would say that my Brain was ‘Fried’. If I then slept well, I’d be much better. Till the next time which wouldn’t take long. Without Adderall, I can’t escape my own thoughts, stop ruminating over pass hurts and mistakes. I believe a lot of people use alcohol or drugs in order to get some ‘Relief’ from what’s going thru their head. Sometimes when it’s the regular loop of crap for hours, I call it ‘Brain Static’ - my Brain can’t dial in to a radio station. It just continuously goes around the radio dial trying to tune in a radio station that has a strong signal, but all I get is Static. If I can’t stop the Brain static, I’m not going to sleep or get any quality sleep.

Getting proper sleep, and for me Quality sleep is more important than Quantity, is a problem also. Whatever the Dr gives me to help sleep, works for a couple of weeks and then stops working. This has been an issue since I was a kid. Often I would have strange, unsettling dreams, and I’d wake up sad, bad, anxious-but would only remember small parts of dream. Then I feel like I’ve got a sleep Hangover all day, while struggling to remember what was in that dream. Often it seemed like the dreams were in a ‘Loop’ that kept repeating throughout the night.

I’m waiting for the Rx companies to develop an Adderall ‘Patch’ that works for 16 hours (there is a patch for Ritalin).

As far as ADHD and emotions goes, I believe that the Mental Health Pro’s, including Researchers, have a long way to get a really good understanding on how our emotions and moods can be different.

Check out dodsonadhdcenter.com/reject.... You may have to paste this right in to the address line. It doesn’t always work in a search engine.

I agree that this Sh#t is hard. And it seriously affects all parts of our life. Especially to try to have a quality, enjoyable life. To be able to Thrive and not just survive.

As far as what’s ‘Normal’….. I got nothing.

Hang in there. I could be that you and your Dr need to look at different Rx’s at different dosages to find what works for you. I’d

Does anyone else in this forum struggle with problems like we’ve discussed?

[Wiiki420 in reply to FindingTheAnswers]

Thanks for the reply 🙂 i will take a look at the link thank you.. and yeah "brain static" is a great way to describe it.. i describe it as scrolling thru tiktok but only watchin the first 2 seconds of each video.. and yeah if i manage a good nights sleep i am a lot better as well, but they are few and far between to say the least.. but i just cant seem to find a balance.