I was diagnosed with adhd when I was 7 and was on dexadrine til I was 13 cos it was stunting my growth. As soon as I got off the dexadrine, I became depressed and super anxious. I struggled big time with my self esteem. Fast foreward to when I was 27 and I began using heroin and method. When I was on the meth, I could focus, didn't loose things constantly, didnt self doubt myself, didnt have the constant voices in ny head that were constantly talking, my impulse control was managed and all in all I could go to work and be productive cos I was selfish medicating with the meth and numbing myself with the heroin to make the depression not be so bad. Unfortunately I became homeless cos the habit of heroin took over my life.... If you have gotten this far in my story, thank you!...
December 2019 I decided i wanted to be clean from drugs and called my emergency contact(who is also a good friend of 13+ years, that I would consider my mentor). Within 3 hours my emergency contact was by my side to pick me up. I was taken in by my emergency contact to live in his girlfriends house, where I painfully got clean cold turkey.
It took me a year and four months to get the courage to call a therapist and a psychologist. I do not hide my past drug use to healthcare providers. Unfortunately, by me saying that I was a past meth user, my psychologist is extremely hesitant to prescribe me stimulants. I've been on Wellbutrin SR 200mg and Busbar HCL 10mg for 6+ weeks and have not seen any improvement in my depression, anxiety and adhd. I was able to get the records from my mom that show I have been diagnosed with ADHD and which medication I was taking, Dexedrine. Two and a half weeks ago I was put on Guanfacine 1mg and yesterday got bumped up to ER 2mg. I am not feeling any of these meds! I have been told that it takes up to 6 weeks to fully work. Shouldn't I be having less depression, anxiety and adhd by now? I can't recognize any difference in my mental health from when I was not taking meds and right now. I have requested to get genetic testing done, which will happen on my next appointment in 2ish weeks. I know that I sad self medicating by using meth and it worked. If the gentic test shows that I respond extremely well to stimulants, how likely is it that my psychologist will put me on a stimulant considering my past history with drugs? Anyone else gone through something similar?