Getting Back to My Writing

[WindowtotheStars]

Hi all,

I've been doing really well on Wellbutrin, and just had my first appt with a psychiatric NP. My only concern is the Wellbutrin worked at first and I had a ton of mental clarity that since has plateaued. It helped me get where I am now in that I have a morning routine, the chores get done, I exercise (and have lost 20lbs!Wooh!) and I feel a whole lot less like that fragmented, perpetually overwhelmed person I was before I reached the therapeutic dose. That all has been great. I am actually a writer, and have been for years trying to author two novels. I was in 185 pages in one of them and then discovered a fatal flaw in the premise that required me to go back to the start. And this was when COVID hit and all motivation went down the drain. I haven't written since March this year. It's frustrating when I hear some of my other writer friends using COVID time to finish the novel they've been working on. I try not to take it as a reflection of me being a failure, because everyone handles this pandemic differently and my workload skyrocketed very quickly.

However, I am now positively yearning to write again, yet cannot find a way forward. I've broken down the steps and I've written some tasks in my calendar. But it seems that life constantly wants to throw a curveball either with a crazy day at work, a walk my husband wants to go on (and I refuse to deny when it's hard enough to get him outside), and cooking a dinner that ends up taking too long. And I just keep getting sucked into my instant gratification ways. So I backed off. Clearly I need to rethink this thing.

My NP is increasing my Wellbutrin dose, so hopefully this helps. I'm also taking a baby step of integrating a meditation practice into my routine (something that I completely forgot I was aiming to start), and then go from there.

But I would love to hear from you guys. Any tips or ideas?

[Shnookie]

I'm so proud of you. The fact that the Wellbrutin is working well and that U have lost 20 pounds is great. Don't be so hard on yourself and compare yourself to others. Trust me I have done this for much of my life. Instant gratification can be positive many times especially during COVID. Seriously if it takes a little longer to cook dinner as they would say on SNL, tough noogies U do not need to seek perfection. Do the best U can. By mentioning that U feel that your mind is not in a fog and that U R taking up meditation again is great. I'm in your corner. Shnookie

[2tiredtozoom]

Consider signing up for National Novel Writing Month. nanowrimo.org/about-nano. It may provide the support and motivation you need!