Afraid to go out

[Hyzee]

I am a female in my 60s. My life has always been chaotic but I have had long periods of self-confidence/success and then sudden defeat due to mood and lack of organization. I have been in my house since the middle of March and I have to go back to work next week. The school is taking every possible safety measure it can. I have been diagnosed with ADD for 12 years and on medication for 5. I still struggle with organizatioal issues, procrastination and social anxiety at work. I have several conditions that make me high risk for the virus. We don't have a lot of casees in my area so I would like to go back to work. But I have a fear, which I believe is legitimate and that is this: can I be "present" enough and together enough to satisfy all the safety hoops-mask, glove, don't touch face, 6 feet, wash hands long enough, cough in to my elbow..... This may sound silly but, I honestly don't feel safe going out with my health conditions and age PLUS being really foggy with new procedures, worry, and general overwhelm by what my job requires. Could ADD make me more likely to get covid and/or fired because I just can't keep it together. I could die! You would think life threatening situations would make you get it together but that has never been the case for me. Can anyone offer suggestions or share if I am not alone in this worry?

[Viewer87]

Having ADD is debilitating in itself. I was diagnosed 5 years ago. ADD works hand in hand with depression. The inability to focus, lack of mental clarity, and disorganization can impede anyone's ability to feel confident and make proper judgement calls.

COVID-19 has been a damper on everything. It's a setback, but I also think it can be a supernatural setup to. I always think of what can I do better in this season in order to be adequately prepared for the next. I think having spirituality of your understanding present in life is key to finding any kind of light in a dark area.

Fear is depravity, and it can rob our joy. Think of every fear you have, and having skeleton keys to unlock it out of your closet. Knowing this you have the key to unlock it and obliterate the fear.

[HonestAbe]

You have every right to be concerned. It just isn’t easy. If anything, maybe take comfort in the fact that everyone now has some of that anxiety you’ve been dealing with for so long... you might be able to comfort others that are new to anxiety!

Maybe you’d like to talk with someone in the EAP department about it.

No matter what, I’m pulling for you👍🏻

🙏

[Hyzee in reply to HonestAbe]

Thank you so much for your support. Good advise!