Hey there. Disappeared there. This last few weeks have been rough, and while I'm sure politics maybe aren't a good topic here, i am really really scared.
My emotions are NOT STAYING STILL, and I'm vasalating between being angry and terrified, and don't have a safe outlet to let any out right now.. I feel stuck.
Things have changed in my life too, and it still feels pretty raw. Long held secrets, I've been holding on to out of childhood fear, I have talked about openly. Thankfully my family is generally pretty compassionate, it was still hard to come clean.
I want to stop feeling out of control. I have had so much trouble settling down to even try to meditate, or it feels like i need to switch my brain off entirely..
This is very ramble-y and nonsensical.
Going to try to sleep... Hard reset button for life