Hello! I am SO grateful I found this site! I am an adult with ADHD, and was diagnosed in childhood. I was treated with behavioral therapy methods and tutors/assistance with learning disabilities until college. Medication was stigmatized in my family, so that wasn't an option for me. My ADHD and learning disabilities did not accompany me to college, they just sort of vanished, because we never addressed or spoke of them the day I moved into the freshman dorms. I began what would be a 15 year war with myself, fighting against things I could not, for the life of me, figure out. I developed a dangerous inner drive that helped me accomplish great things, but I was also always carrying a huge weight inside me, that I eventually came to believe was a punishment for being a bad person. 2017 was the year I learned that weight was undiagnosed and untreated mental illness. Things are so much better now, but it will be a lifelong journey, of course. I finally started getting treated with medication last year for my ADHD, along with learning new skills and tools. Since I have other mental illnesses, my ADHD has been pushed aside more than it should, and I find myself saying it isn't that bad...I can handle this...I am being a baby...Oh boy, that can only last for so long, and here I am, feeling exhausted, overwhelmed, and angry with ADHD. I strongly feel like I need a medication adjustment. I have been on the same brand and dose for 6 months, and I can't seem to be able to voice my needs and thoughts to my doctor. I go in Friday, and I am so afraid I will sit there and lie that I am doing just fine. I have so much trouble asking for help, and advocating for myself. I am afraid my doctor will brush it off, or say my difficulties have nothing to do with my medication. Does anyone here have any advice or experience with ways to communicate feelings to the doctor? I have spent the last 6 months doing anything and all I can to alleviate my ADHD symptoms with diet, exercise, meditation, more sleep, less sleep, no exercise, break from work, work, structured busy schedule, down time, riding my horse, journaling...guys, I have hit the wall and then some. I am desperate. Thank you so much for taking the time to read this, and I wish you all the best.