Hey y’all... needing some encouragement... Never wanted to medicate my just-turned-8 year old son but was told after the Vanderbilt Scale that he needed it. Have now gone through 4 different meds/dosages with no luck and with a scare on this last one when he became unusually defiant and NOT my son. Got a referral to psychiatrist today to better monitor meds but am unsure I want to continue down this path. I feel guilty testing all these meds with crazy side effects on him & I feel guilty not wanting to medicate him in case it is exactly what he needs to thrive and be happy! This parenting gig is hard.