Sometimes I wish I was the person people think I am. I used to be a real big animal lover. I would literally die to save one of my pets. But lately all I can do is wonder how I can rehome some of them. If you knew who I was you would be shocked and aghast! I was one of those crusaders preaching the responsibites and life long commitment to one's pets. I even had my pets in my will. I still want that for a few of them. This is all tied into my employment. So I can't Just dump the ones I don't want in my life easily. But it is like I don't even know myself to even feel this way. It is like - man-what happened?! I used to cry at the thought of kittens freezing in the cold. Now I am like- meh! I would never put one in the cold but I just don't care like I used to. I had a friend who woke up from a nightmare cause she dreamed she saw a kitten so hungry he was eating little rocks. And I was still waiting to hear the nightmare part of her dream. If you never cared about things like this my story will have little meaning. But if you are an avid volunteer and advocate for responsible life long commitments to our pets- you may see how extremely out of character all this is for me if you imagine or happening to your own heart! I am disappointed in myself for sure. When someone talks about a person showing their true colours -I never saw that as a positive thing for someone to do. And now thinking of myself I definately don't!