I just want to let those of you who know me know that I have actually had a good few days - I've been out in the garden a lot which has definitely improved my mood, seeing things bursting into bud and tidying everything up, and I've also started painting again, which after 3 years is a relief though I'm not in the swing of it yet but have at least made a start!
I've just been watching the program about the rich and famous living with people on benefits for a week and feel quite humble and a bit ashamed at having allowed myself to become so self-pitying when we have so much by comparison - at least I am always warm(ish), well fed and clothed, with enough money to go out sometimes, and with a lovely house and garden and no overwhelming debts. Sometimes it so easy to forget how lucky we are. I won't beat myself up too much about it because I know everything is relative and material things don't bring happiness, but remembering what I have got does put the depression into perspective. I hope I can manage to continue to look positively at my life and let go of my anger and painful feelings.
I hope you are all ok - I don't come on here every day and sometimes miss when you post but I do think about the regulars on here and hope you are all feeling reasonably ok.