Haven't quite got to that stage yet but I did go out at 2100 this evening to look for butterflies - saw over 40 despite the lateness and lack of sunlight - guess it's a bit of bloody mindedness - just like to see how late you can find them about ... and there is something so peaceful about seeing a butterfly perched on a flower head or a stalk of grass.
Had quite a difficult fortnight - internet connection disappeared on 11th July and took until this morning (and a couple of long and fraught conversations with help desks explaining that problems really hadn't been resolved). Guess it didn't help that it was a really busy period for me at work so couldn't take time off ... and couldn't work from home as I had no internet.
My last cat had to be euthanised on 15th - he was a beautiful and very placid creature and it was only the fact that he was having to sit down after taking a couple of paces that made it obvious that he really wasn't well. It's over 25 years since I didn't have a cat - mainly because I've had multiple cats so felt rather lost. Have contacted Cat Protection League and been inspected (my word not theirs) to check I'm suitable and the property is suitable so just waiting to hear from fosterers about when I might be able to go and visit some cats (pairs) to see if we are compatible.
Been reading a book on MBCT - based on an 8 week course and slowly working my way through it - jumped ahead though to a meditation scheduled for a few weeks time when the cat went - found that really helped with coping with how I was feeling - particularly as I really needed to be able to keep it together enough to set the auditors in the right direction on the year end accounts. Just went in to the office and did that then came home and did nothing else all day on the day it happened.
Last week was really tough going though - particularly the Friday - probably because all the stress means I'm waking up quite early with a sense of panic. I can get back to sleep - usually with the help of a meditation - but it takes a while and it all adds up. The foot/ankle has also been playing up - swelling quite a bit at the moment - but using the ice-packs in bed does at least mean that I cooled down enough to sleep in the heat.
Really not sure about the revamped site - feels like a face lift that wasn't actually needed and no actual change in substance ... and possibly even a loss of some functionality - one step forward and two steps back? though I guess the lack of daily updates did at least reduce the amount of emails that I had to work through when I finally got the internet back.