Escape: My name is alien to me. I don't know... - Above & Beyond

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My name is alien to me. I don't know who I am anymore. My entire life I hoped that something weird would happen to me. I would get accepted into Hogwarts, I would find out that the supernatural was real, my parents would be spies, or I was switched at birth. When I was little I couldn't wait to be my current age because I thought that's when everything would happen to me. I spent my entire childhood trying to act like my current age that I never got to experience being a child. Now I want to start over. I'm stuck wishing I lived in a world where magic was real. I want to live a life where I have a purpose, but how can I. I'm just a person, and one day I'm going to die and no one will remember. That what people are. We all die and there's nothing significant about our lives. I just don't understand how the universe could be so big and this is the life that I got. I get yelled at so much for watching too much tv or for reading/listening to books all the time. I thought for a while that I was just depressed and I couldn't function enough to do anything else, but now I'm starting to realize that I use it as an escape. I hate my life so much that I just pretend I have a different one, I get so absorbed in the shows and books that I read that I forget that this is my life. It hurts when I finish a series or a book because I can no longer have that life. My escape is gone and I'm forced to recognize my actual life. I don't understand my own emotions because I've taken on the characteristics of so many characters. I don't know how to react to situations because I haven't seen characters react to them. I don't know how to feel because I don't know how my favorite characters would feel. I keep saying I don't know what's wrong, but I do. I never became a person. Ever since I was little I used my friends, family, and characters to figure out how I should act and I never grew up to be someone. I want to go back and try all over again, but I can't. I don't live in a world where I can just escape or find a bigger meaning. I'm just a person and one day I'm going to die just like everyone else.

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Ya know..we all go thru this in some sort of way in our life.

But..heres the silverlining for ya..u recognize all this ..n some dont.

U dont have to "try all over again"..u just have to start a new chapter for urself,a new season in ur series.Make urself the main character in ur life with a wonderful story to live in n by.

We all feel like u me on that one.

Best to u😊

Cant wait to hear how ur story begins😊😊😊

Miracles, magic can happen - religion also makes you think so The key is to have interest or stay creative that way you do not get bored Life can be interesting it depends on you making the effort - follow your heart and try new things say online courses so many subjects to choose from

You are living a unreal world that only exists on the white/blue screen. There is nothing wrong believing in something that is unreal, however you need to switch off from that part of your Life and remember you are living in a world where you make your own Life Story. Believe me when I say we can also make our lives just as interesting.

Many people visit places around the world where they made all these films. On my travels I have visited and seen many locations that were used in these stories. Many in America, Europe and Africa to name just a few.

You are the person who can make your Life interesting also challenging it is all down to you what you would like to do. You mention Hogwarts, I used the Railway, along the line where Harries Hogwarts was, also I have traveled on the same train what you know as the Hogwarts Express. If you are interested and would like to visit these places, you can look at the credits at the end of the films for where the film was acted out. There are actual books as well that tell you places to visit. Most of Star Wars was taken in Southern Marocco where the people lived in caves, you can visit their houses ?

You have an interest why not work on the places the stars made the films

How old are You


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