I hate this

I hate me. I'm disgusting. I have bothing to offer other than being a housewife. Funny thing us, that's not who I used to be. I look at pictures on my wall and i want to burn them. The fake represantation of failure that is called my life. My son has led me to depression at age of 3 & 1/2. I wish I could just pick give him up, pack my things and go. I don't care where, I just want to run away. And worst of all I just want to be something, feel worth something. I miss the way I felt. I just want to scream on top of my lungs when people say this will pass. It hasn't for the last 9 months. They don't understand that I've already passed my limit of capapbility of dealing with this a long time ago. Then I'm the bad guy because I say what they are saying doesnt help. I always strived to have a family, be a good mother. Now if i could I'd take it all back and be on my own. It doesn't feel like it would be any diffferent to what my life is right now. I just can't do this. I just want to be gone.

[Montay]

Hi have you thought about doing some kinds of exercise therapy? I've been to a handful of therapists and I can offer that exercise is much better than therapy.