Am I depressed?

Hi guys, I'm a student.Recent events in the past few weeks have made me start asking myself certain questions.I grew up really loving my mother and as a matter of fact she understood me the most in my family of six.However she died in 2015 and at first it didn't really hit me hard.Now in 2017 my life feels really boring and empty, little or no friends,I have a very poor social life and I am a very shy person especially with ladies.My only companion is my phone and once I have a low battery life becomes worthless.My mothers was always filling the void back then but now I'm really not happy.

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Sounds really familiar. I'm a 43-year-old man and I'm still fighting feelings of worthlessness, anxiety, and depression. Most of the time I don't want to be around people, I don't want to go anywhere, I don't want to do anything. My memory is horrible and I feel like I can't relate to many people if anybody except the peeps here talking about the same things I've been talking about all my life. my self-esteem is blown, as a matter fact I don't think I ever had any for more than a week. I just want you to know that you're not alone