Life seems to have no meaning......

[Richard6]

Hi all this is the first time I have ever done this but am feeling totally lost and just can't seem to be interested in anything or anybody.

I have been on anti-depressants for a couple of years now following surgery on my spine which has not worked out ad I had hoped.

They don't seem to be working anymore and I don't know what to do.

Life just seems to be for other people and not me anymore I feel like a spectator rather than a player.

Probably rambling but reading other people's experiences on here has made me realise that I am not the only one.

[Amitheonlyone]

Hello, thank you for sharing. Really sorry that your surgery didn't work out the way that you'd hoped. I know it's really cliche but it helps to know that you're not the only one going through it. Someone once told me that whatever type of person you are whether you are extrovert or introvert someone really outgoing every person contributes to the world and people around them. Just one word or interaction it takes to become part of someones life experience. I know it sounds silly but I find it a comforting way to look at it.

[Richard6 in reply to Amitheonlyone]

Thanks for replying and it means a lot that others are suffering the same and sharing their experiences and support. I used to be the life and soul of the party but it seems like it was someone else and not me anymore. I dont know if it's just life but everything seems to be a battle.

Well I am probably rambling but good to talk, thankyou for your kind words.

[Amitheonlyone in reply to Richard6]

You are very welcome. Relate to the battles, just when you get through one the next one starts. What I crave more than anything is even a small period of stability where the next challenge is nothing but calm.

[Richard6 in reply to Amitheonlyone]

God you are so right that is exactly how I feel it just seems to be one thing after another and then another just when I think that things might be ok then something else is along to follow it. I used to be able to deal with things like this but now everything just seems to be nothing but a real hassle. Perhaps it's just me and I am blowing things up out of all proportion I don't know, I keep thinking it will go away but it doesn't. Does that make sense to you?

[Amitheonlyone in reply to Richard6]

Definitely makes sense and its not even the big things its all the little things that slowly feel like they cascade from one issue to the next. It is a little like that saying that a thousand paper cuts is much more painful than one big cut.