I've been scouring the internet and I just cant seem to find anything relevant to my situation! And I am desperate! So I am reaching out here!!!
The situation: I was doing really well with my dieting. I've struggled to overcome obstacles at work as I work around food, serving food and left overs are free so its extremely tempting to have cheesecake or sticky toffee sponge or other sweet treats.
I've mostly got around this by allowing myself just one bite rather than a whole portion.
But recently the chef has started home baking these super delicious cookies for me to take around and hand out. And I'm afraid it's a trigger food for me. Especially big fat choc chip cookies. I find it hard to resist her stem ginger , vanilla and almond ones too. But sometimes I can just have one or very very occasionally resist altogether. I take my own sugar free cookies (just two) and add them into my calorie count to try to resist the chefs ones. But the choc chip ones are irresistible. And I end up having 2 or 3!! And they are big! Like 4 inch diameter.
When she makes lemon ones I can totally resist as I dont like lemon much! And on the days when she doesnt work the other chef doesnt bake so it's just normal biscuits which I used to find hard to resist but now dont bother me as I have my own "cookies" and a banana that I take to work.
But these damn cookies!!!
And it's getting bad as yesterday i just binged for the whole day after work after feeling like 'a failure' for breaking my diet. I ate so much my tummy hurt and I felt sick and I stuck my fingers down my throat to be sick on purpose to 'undo' some of the bad. And I felt pleased about that!
Today same thing has happened with cookie temptation- the choc chip ones! I ate 5. Most I've ever eaten! Came home and ate more rubbish. Not quite as bad as yesterday and I am not going to make myself sick. But I want to get back on track and I need to know how to stop myself eating these cookies!
Advice online mostly presumes you can avoid them. But I have to walk around with them as part of my job! So no avoiding!
What can i do!!!