Dieting drama queen 🙈👸😂

[LouA2016]

Hmmmm.... so as I've mentioned before, I have in the past joined particular weight loss groups. These groups allow you to comsume as much fruit and veg as you fancy without counting, weighing, 'pointing' or 'synning'. So I hope you understand just how bloody irritated and frustrated I was to discover that the fabulous looking fruit salad infront of me was over 200cals!! And that basically it was too high a count considering what I had already consumed beforehand.

Well! I stormed out of the kitchen, stomped up the stairs, slammed my bedroom door (Yes I realise this is the behaviour suited to a teenager and not a thirty (early!) something t'other!) and sulked.

My head raced with thoughts pinging and zinging around...

" This is just stupid!"

"I can't do THIS!"

"Bloody restricting something as bloody healthy as fruit! This is crazy stuff!"

Now usually, this scenario would be followed by a visit to the kitchen where I would succumb to a binge. I think it's vital here to briefly consider the 'binge'. I have heard people (friends and family) refer to a binge and they tell me the likes of...

"Oh I binged so bad last night. I had a chocolate bar and a WHOLE packet of crisps!"

Everyone's reference to a binge is different, I have learned. Mine is very different. My last binge which was a few weeks ago (excellent achievement for me!) consisted of a 6 pack multi pack of crisps, an entire pack of chocolate digestive biscuits, a WHOLE Victoria sponge cake and a tube of Pringles. This was demolished within a little over 10 minutes. I have also learned everyone has their own unique trigger to a binge. Mine was regarding an incident with a GP who is now under investigation but the investigation process made me feel worthless. BAM! BINGE!

Anyway, so back to my bedroom where I was busy sulking... I began to allow my mindset to be clouded. I was thinking of all the negative aspects of the dilemma (😂😂) in which I had found myself in. But then something else happened...

The longer I stayed away from the kitchen... the quicker the cloud passed. I began to feel calmer. But, I did go back down to the kitchen.

I went back to the kitchen where I took out the scales and measured out some of the fruit salad, working out the calories as I went. It took a while as I am still new to calorie counting, but I did it.

I guess what I'm getting at is; if you binge or self sabotage as I do, be kind enough to yourself to allow the cloud or storm to pass, because it will! A binge urge comes from our mind and our minds don't control us, we control them!

Today I took another step to my happy and healthy future self and I can't wait to meet her!

Well this drama queen is off to bed!

Until tomorrow you amazing people!

Sweet dreams and love

L x

[EllaMidlands]

Well done for resisting the urge to overeat. Staying away from temptation definitely helps!

[LouA2016 in reply to EllaMidlands]

Thankyou. Learning so much via life changes.

[kiwikyd-nz]

Thanks for giving me a laugh picturing the teenage tantrum (despite the reality of a situation that I can almost relate to). Check out this little clip for a bit of a giggle youtube.com/watch?v=KlTxGvB...(Not working as expected?)

[IndigoBlue61 in reply to kiwikyd-nz]

Love it! 😂😂😂

[LouA2016 in reply to kiwikyd-nz]

Oh I just LOVE this!! It's just put a huge grin on my face after a somewhat difficult day x

[Hidden]

Sounds like what I would've done. Good for you for making the right choice.

[LouA2016 in reply to Hidden]

Hit the nail on head... choice power x

[James40Cheshire]

Really well done for not binging. My definition of a binge is definitely the same as yours with family sized Galaxy bars being my poison! It is amazing how many calories are in fruit and they contain sugar albeit natural. Salad and vegetables are far less calorific in the main. However, it is very important to make sure that we have our 5/7 a day I think. So I always try to have plenty of salad and vegetables and some fruit every day. Sounds like you are making a great start to calorie counting, it gets easier as time goes on as you start to know what 100g of something looks like and what foods to be careful with. Good luck with it. James

[LouA2016 in reply to James40Cheshire]

Thankyou for you James for your reply, encouragement and support! I am hopeful this will get easier. I'm doing my best to continue to see this through and I am sure I will continue to learn

L x

[Rignold 3kg]

Excellent post.

[LouA2016 in reply to Rignold]

Thankyou 🤗🤗

[Bing72]

Well done on resisting, and brilliantly written!

[LouA2016 in reply to Bing72]

Thankyou very much 🤗🤗

[IndigoBlue61]

Brilliant post LouA2016 and very well done you 😊🎉👏🏅 You are being accountable, proactive and have realised that you are strong and can overcome these urges 😊 Your brain is your biggest ally!

Good luck and very best wishes

Anna

[LouA2016 in reply to IndigoBlue61]

Thankyou so much Anna

Strength is something I am now learning that I have

L x

[Claz]

well done on resisting the binge.... its so hard to resist the call of a cadburys dairy milk and pringles... i struggle every day to resist it...

Going back to portion control and calories... i had a melt down once when i realised how many calories were in a portion of spaghetti... i remember having a right strop about it as on SW i could have as much as i liked but with calorie counting you realised how big your portion sizes were.. i ended up not having the spaghetti and hardly eat pasta anymore now and it used to be my favourite thing to eat.

Like you say with 'mind over matter' we can stop ourselves self sabotaging all of our good work just for satisfaction for a couple of mins but if you stop and allow yourself to make the right choice then it makes you feel better about yourself and keeps you going..

hope you have a great day x

[LouA2016 in reply to Claz]

Thankyou for your encouraging words. I'm glad I am not the only one who has struggled coming to terms with calorie control VS slimming world!! I have realised and learned plenty regarding portion size this week and I am still trying to get my head around the calories. I'm sure I'll get there with determination 💪💪💪