I think I might struggle to explain this without sounding like the neurotic I can be sometimes. We don’t make old bones in my family (cancer) so I tend to worry a little when I feel under the weather.
Since starting a T3/T4 trial on the NHS, I’ve been benefitting from the T3 (less joint and muscle pain, etc) but feeling exhausted. This has been going on for two months now and I largely explained the exhaustion to myself in terms of the massive drop in levo. Except at 3 in the morning when I can’t sleep and I start convincing myself that it must be something more sinister, which started making itself felt at the same time as the trial!
So, what to do about the worry? For my own peace of mind, I thought I would try upping the levo from 75 mcg to 100 mcg for one day to see what happened. If I feel OK, then it’s thyroid, stick with the lower dose and hope it either rights itself or endo increases it at the next test. All good. Stop worrying.
So, in the 100 mcg morning I immediately felt like I’d been hit by a bus. Mmm, not good. By the afternoon however, oh hello world! I felt awesome! I knocked back to 50 mcg today to even out yesterday’s blip and I still feel awesome now. I wonder if I will hit the wall tonight?
It could of course be totally coincidental. I’ve been on this 75 mcg T4 dose for 3 weeks and Ive never had an uptick after longer than 2, so I guess I’m programmed not to believe it is the dosage settling down - a personal blind spot, perhaps? And I always thought that moving the dose around every day was a bad plan. But what if it isn’t? Maybe, at worst, I can feel good for 24 hrs out of 48 like this... ?
My mother used to say that I reminded her of a race horse in a parade ring, ready to bolt at 45 mph in any direction at a moment’s notice. (I hope she was thinking of the legs not the face!) And I feel like that again... I used to struggle with too much energy, too many thoughts and that’s why I ran, did yoga... just had to try to exhaust myself; I was pretty ADD, prone to periods of hyper concentration sometimes and having the attention span of a gnat at others; I was like it since childhood and took a battering for it in every school report they ever wrote; “she’s bright but so inconsistent, if only she would apply herself”, and my personal favourite “manages to pay attention whilst not really listening”(?!) and my mum would come home angry so with me after parents’ evening!! Anyway, here it all is again. I wonder if it will last through the afternoon and evening? I wonder if the dose split has anything to do with it? Surely not... ? I mean I always think I’m pretty quick to react and adjust to levo, but.. ?! I struggle to imagine that uneven dosage could be better for anyone, to be honest... still, I will go back to normal tomorrow and see what transpires. In the meantime, 24 hours of feeling good is rather nice and the confirmation I needed that I Will Get There... !
L x