First of all, I apologise for writing this without my blood results, I'm just not at all sure what to do and feel intensely alone and afraid, despite having people around me. (They don't seem to know how bad I feel.)
Had my thyroid blood test done for the first time last week. Dr yesterday said there was absolutely nothing wrong and I tried to press the issue but he refused to elaborate on it by telling me my levels.
It all started about a month ago (though I've had the choking feeling and mild fatigue for about 5yrs now) when I became constipated out of nowhere. My brain decided to freak out. I had pancreatitis that landed me in hospital about seven years ago and a switch just flipped inside with me knowing there was something going on. I've never been constipated before so it was a huge deal for me. Around the same time, I started to get a burning ache in my neck and shoulder that won't go away. This sometimes goes down my arm too and makes the right side of my body feel generally...heavy, I suppose is the word? Then the choking feeling came back and I swore my neck was swollen but the dr yesterday felt it and said it wasn't.
They increased my anti depressant and I just feel so..lost. I'm a fraction of the shadow that was the me of literally a month ago and I need people to talk to. I have considered the fact the doctor could be right but I wake up every day and for a fraction of a second I think I'm better. But I'm not.
Any tips on how to get the doctor to give me my levels? I'm a guitarist that can barely hold her guitar at the minute. I'm terrified that I'll never feel alright again.
I also have gotten two colds in the last two months and I used to very rarely get them. My bloods showed a borderline elevated CRP (which I had to press him in asking about before he told me) and as far as I know that's because of the cold but I just feel sad and alone 24/7.
Sorry if this is the wrong place, not really sure where to turn. I tick most boxes for hypo but I just don't understand why all of these aches have come out of nowhere. Thank you for listening if you did.