It's 3.15am and I still can't sleep. Why?
Because like most of you on this site I have been so belittled and rejected, 43 years of it. This last 18 months especially, I have battled so hard and I am not going to apologise for being ill. It is only in the last few months that someone actually said I was ill. I spent my whole life in misery because of labels put on me and when I eventually found out about the thyroid and all the problems it causes I flipped out big time. My anger now is of the last 18 months when doctors knew what the problem was and the pshycological difficulties it causes they still belittled me, lied to me and bascially closed the doors on me. When I developed double vision that is when I was refered to endo and before my backside met with the chair she said there was nothing wrong with my thyroid I was an anxious depressive. I went to PALS and complained but of course, I imagined it, and she (endo) said she would never say such a thing to a patient. The eye hospital told me I was lying about my eye symptoms and insisted my affected eye was my best eye. A second opinion at another hospital disputed this and the rest.
So my problem is now I am finding it hard to move on, I don't trust any doctors and am sad and angry as there is no justice, I can't prove anything.
Please don't go to appointments on your own take someone as a witness.
I am on T3 only and TT, I get regular blood tests but gauge for myself by how I feel and at last I am begining to feel whole, though I had forgotten how that feels. Don't give up. Keep fighting and you will get there, I never thought I would and I have forgotten how many time I fell and picked myself up again, just to prove the b*****s wrong probably. It has been so good to find this site recently. I just want to fight for you all, I think it has made me feel stronger and I would love to write a book but it would be too daming to print.
Be strong, no one knows you better than you, remind them you are a unique human being not a text book, you are you and what is right for you is not what is right for everyone. It is time these doctors thought out of the box
Hope I haven't bored you all, I live alone and needed a bit of a rant.