Hi everyone....I'm a 29 year old mother of 2 and I have recently been diagnosed with hypothyroidism following the birth of my 2nd child. My life has taken a nose dive and I am so lost and confused I'm hoping that I might get some clarity & guidance from the knowledgeable people on here.
Following the birth of my daughter in October 2012 I paid a weekly visit to my gp complaining about my health and i was always sent home with a pat on the back with the same "diagnosis" of baby blues. I knew 100% i had NOT got post natal depression - yes i was a little depressed because my body was not allowing me to be the mother i wanted to be - but i did not have post natal depression. But i didn't feel confident enough to challenge my gp - was this post natal depression????!!!! Then in Feb of this year a new gp joined the medical centre i attend and she asked me to list my symptoms..."how long have you got???" was my reply. She really listened to me and took some blood samples, sent them off and told me she would be in touch.
A few days later, i got a call from my gp asking me to come in for a chat...i was petrified. So when she said "congratulations you're not going mad you have an underactive thyroid" i was just relieved it was "nothing serious". I really didn't have a clue what hypothyroidism was but she didn't say cancer so it can't be that bad right???? My levels (i now know) where off the scale - TSH was greater then 150 and couldn't be read and my T4 was 2.5 - no wonder i felt like death warmed up.
I was started on 75mg of Levo and told to come back in 6 weeks for either bloods etc and possibly a higher dose of levo. I was back 4 days later, i had never felt so sick. I not only ticked every box on the hypo symptoms list, i now had this anxious shakey feeling to contend with???? So, my gp lowered my levo to 50mg saying it was too much too soon which made sense to me. For a week or two i felt pretty amazing - i actually cleaned my house and stayed up to watch the 9 o'clock news go me =)
Then, as if out of nowhere, i felt as if i had been hit by a train - literally. But again this anxious feeling came over me, something i have never felt in my life. My throat felt tight, like there was something stuck in it. When i lay down to sleep my heart felt like it was jumping all over my body - the fear that it was just going to stop beating would overcome me. I would start shaking inwardly, feel like i was going to be sick, i would start peeing LOADS (sorry for tmi) and feel as if i was going to just loose all body control. THEN i would panic - i would only panic as a result of the symptoms i was having.
Again, back and forth to my gp - more bloods TSH 79 T4 8 still all over the place but heading in the right direction thankfully. But my symptoms just seemed to be getting more intense. Until last week i had enough - i decided i couldn't cope with feeling like i was going to collapse all the time. Under the advice of my gp i paid a visit to the a&e dept. It was probably the most pointless thing i have ever done - i spent a night on a trolley with no sleep to basically be told that it was anxiety and i should try calm down. I was told to up my levo to 100mg.
So here i am - on 100mg of levo. Energy levels are up that's a plus. But i am unable to get passed this feeling like i am going to collapse all the time...its the "i just jumped out of bed too quick" feeling but more intense and all the time =/ Is this normal???? I am due to meet with an endocrinologist on the 27th of this month and i would love some advice as to what to say or ask him.i cannot live like this and i certainly couldn't handle being told its anxiety again. I have NEVER suffered from anything like this until being diagnosed & medicated for hypo. Is this "what happens" or should i be concerned????
Thank you all for reading my "novel" lol - all advice greatly appreciated