I know that sounds extremely childish but that's the way I feel at the moment. I know you guys can't wave a magic wand but I just want to share my feeling and,basically,have a good whinge!
I'm so tired of having to cope with IBS,I really felt better last week and I had something like normal bowel movements,wow..Yesterday me and my Hubbie went into the town centre for a couple of hours, had a cuppa, bought a few things, came home and had lunch(fishcakes, mashed spuds, followed by a yoghurt)
All in all,a pleasant, happy morning, though it was very cold. Then in the afternoon that old familiar gurgly feeling started again, I tried to ignore it, had a quiet afternoon reading and doing a crossword in the local paper, had a cup of tea and gluten-free lemon shortbread biscuit, later on, between 7.30 and 8,00 had my usual supper of cornflakes,toast,tea and biscuit then had to make it to the loo pretty quickly...Not exactly diarrhoea but a very swift, loose stool. Here we go again, I thought.
Felt exhausted today, had a small b.m.this morning, lot of mucus,appalling low stomach pains after lunch(small amount of roast chicken, spuds, 2 tiny carrots and a small helping of my Hubbie's famed apple crumble)Slept most of the afternoon and I feel so depressed at the thought of spending the rest of my life like this.
We usually go to Church on Sunday evenings, it was my turn to do the readings, had to ask someone else yet again again. I just hate not being able to keep my promises and honour my commitments, and do the few things I like doing. I'm trying to stay positive but feel so low tonight.
One thing I have noticed that if I go out in the very cold weather it seems to have a knock-on effect on my gut:so do I just stay at home in the cold weather?!
Sorry to drone on! I'm due to see a Dietician but not until February, because of a change of personnel at the Hospital. I started on the FODMAP diet a couple of months ago but had problems because so much gluten-free stuff has egg whites in it, which I have an intolerance to. So it's back to the drawing board...
Anyway, thanks for listening